woooo! i cannot. simply cannot believe i've known annie for 6 months. feels like, 6 decades. but shes a baby so thats impossible. but yeah. she is so... crazy, and wild, and predictable yet i'm always surprised at what she does/says. i have a tonnnnnn of control over her, its like, crazy. and i've taught her awot too. but she's tought me a wots too! so, since i'm the one thats good with the sweet stuff, i'm gonna try and be sweet, haha.
she ALWAYS makes me laugh. well, its more like a, eyes big as saucers, mouth in an "O" and eye brows reachign the stars kinda way.. but she never fails.
she's put up wiht more of my *crap than anybody.
she knows me (scarily) wayyyy too well.
we have SO many inside jokes i can't remember them all.
we have the BEST game ever, called 3-2. :) be jealous.
SHE can turn ANYTHING into some really slutty comment. but its okay, cause i kinda made her that way (with the help of Sheena, of course)
i'm gradually making her a football fan.
i make fun of her alot but she knows i don't mean it :)
she's going to teach me how to twirl a baton thingey, she just doesn't know it yet.
shes like, the most goth-rocker chick girl i've ever met, and she thinks thats insaneeee.
i have changed her SO much. like, yeah.
i make her laugh alot too.
she's perfectly okay with a vegas wedding.
she's fully prepared for me to turn into bridezilla.
she's the best researcher EVER, and she will be fully reimbursed eventually :)
i use up all of her minutes, but thats okay.
i practically own her facebook profile.
aaaand shes just... one of my favorite friends ever.
&idk where i'd be w/o her.
so this is for you, mrs. annie rose peleckie trevor drumma booiiiii colletti!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
loved & lost?
Got a date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says he's crazy
I'll have to wait and see
I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on
It seems I'm doing more of that these days
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
Mama says that I just shouldn't speak to you
Susan says that I should just move on
You oughta see the way these people look at me
When they see me 'round here talking to this stone
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind
But I just take it day by day
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes I feel an angel's touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
Probably wouldn't be this way
Got A Date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says I'm crazy
I'll have to wait and see
so. its more about losing her husband than a grandparent, but still seems somewhat fitting. & i promise, all my posts won't always be this depressing & sad! haha. but, like the song says, ya know, what if you never met the person? what if you never loved them? never got to know everything about them? theirs likes, their dislikes? would you be any better? sometimes i think so, but then, i realize i never got to meet my grandpa godwin. daddy's dad. and i often think about him. everybody talks about him, but i would have really liked to have known him. just, to know him. even if i could just meet him for a day, i think it'd be so cool. what would he tell me? what adivice would he give me? what would he teach me how to do? would he be proud of me? would he like Parker? would he come to my horse shows? now, obviously, the answer to those last 3 questions are yes, but still.. what area of life would he be REALLY good at?
my papa is AMAZING at any kind of animal question. he knows so much abotu them. and he knows what all the crops are in the fields, too. so what would grandpa godwin know? what would he teach me? grandma godwin tought me how to sew. grandma tought me how to cook, and medical stuff. papa teaches me how to dress birds, and hunt, and take care of animals.
so, even tho i'm really sad about what happened with grandma, i still learned SO much. and yes, if i never met her, i wouldn't be this sad and depressed & have such a different look on life, but look at what else i would be missing out on! i woudln't have an AMAZING pearl necklace that my papa gives me pearls for, i woudln't know how to make biscuits that are HEAVENLY. i woudln't know how to properly clean a wound. i woudln't know how to hem pants. i woudln't know how to fry steak, or pick fruit from the store. and i could go on and on and ON about all the things she tought me.
so, is it better to have loved & lost than to have never loved it all? well for me, its better to have loved & lost. cause i have the memories to soothe the pain, a horse to wipe the tears, and friends to hug.
agree?
Everybody says he's crazy
I'll have to wait and see
I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves
I'm probably going on and on
It seems I'm doing more of that these days
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
Mama says that I just shouldn't speak to you
Susan says that I should just move on
You oughta see the way these people look at me
When they see me 'round here talking to this stone
Everybody thinks I've lost my mind
But I just take it day by day
I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes I feel an angel's touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way
Probably wouldn't be this way
Got A Date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says I'm crazy
I'll have to wait and see
so. its more about losing her husband than a grandparent, but still seems somewhat fitting. & i promise, all my posts won't always be this depressing & sad! haha. but, like the song says, ya know, what if you never met the person? what if you never loved them? never got to know everything about them? theirs likes, their dislikes? would you be any better? sometimes i think so, but then, i realize i never got to meet my grandpa godwin. daddy's dad. and i often think about him. everybody talks about him, but i would have really liked to have known him. just, to know him. even if i could just meet him for a day, i think it'd be so cool. what would he tell me? what adivice would he give me? what would he teach me how to do? would he be proud of me? would he like Parker? would he come to my horse shows? now, obviously, the answer to those last 3 questions are yes, but still.. what area of life would he be REALLY good at?
my papa is AMAZING at any kind of animal question. he knows so much abotu them. and he knows what all the crops are in the fields, too. so what would grandpa godwin know? what would he teach me? grandma godwin tought me how to sew. grandma tought me how to cook, and medical stuff. papa teaches me how to dress birds, and hunt, and take care of animals.
so, even tho i'm really sad about what happened with grandma, i still learned SO much. and yes, if i never met her, i wouldn't be this sad and depressed & have such a different look on life, but look at what else i would be missing out on! i woudln't have an AMAZING pearl necklace that my papa gives me pearls for, i woudln't know how to make biscuits that are HEAVENLY. i woudln't know how to properly clean a wound. i woudln't know how to hem pants. i woudln't know how to fry steak, or pick fruit from the store. and i could go on and on and ON about all the things she tought me.
so, is it better to have loved & lost than to have never loved it all? well for me, its better to have loved & lost. cause i have the memories to soothe the pain, a horse to wipe the tears, and friends to hug.
agree?
Sunday, August 30, 2009
I love her <3
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:03 PM): "can i borrow your field?"
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:05 PM): mrs. austin nichols
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:10 PM): & mrs. will
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:12 PM): why yes, yes you can!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:15 PM): this is amazing.
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:19 PM): i love our lives
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:27 PM): i love you for being in my life
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:27 PM): spesh cause ur my friend
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:31 PM):
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:34 PM):
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:43 PM): youz mah bass fraaaaan
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:00 PM): likewise! dont make me cry
nvr lose hope92 (11:24:20 PM): cuz you sang me SWEET SILVER LINING when muh grammie died and i still play it when i'm sad and it makes me cryyyyy cause your so sweet
nvr lose hope92 (11:24:21 PM):
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:23 PM): ive got u makin me cry! and millie writing down the things that evil bitch mom told brooke she couldnt dooo
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:31 PM):
nvr lose hope92 (11:24:37 PM): you've got me makin me cry
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:49 PM): !!!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:59 PM): im not good with words, out loud...
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:06 PM): but i can write, and sing.. horrribly
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:12 PM): you sing WONDERFULLY
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:14 PM): so shut up
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:27 PM): NO I DONT
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:30 PM): YES YOU DO
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:36 PM): YOU SING GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:40 PM): I DO NO!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:43 PM): T
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:45 PM): NOT
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:45 PM): and thats super sized
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:47 PM): YES
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:48 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:49 PM): DO
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:50 PM): SING
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:53 PM): VERY
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:53 PM): WELL
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:54 PM): AND
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:54 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:55 PM): NEED
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:56 PM): TO
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:56 PM): HAVE
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:57 PM): SOME
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:58 PM): FAITH
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:58 PM): IN
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:00 PM): YOURSELF
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:01 PM): CAUSE
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:02 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:03 PM): BOMB
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:04 PM): SINGING!
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:05 PM): IN A
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:06 PM): GOOD
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:07 PM): WAY
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:07 PM): SO
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:08 PM): SHUT
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:09 PM): UP
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:10 PM): NOW
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:13 PM): JORDAN
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:15 PM): Taylor
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:17 PM): GOODWIN
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:19 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:19 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:20 PM): THE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:23 PM): SWEETEST
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:24 PM): PERSON
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:24 PM): EVER
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:27 PM): STOP
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:27 PM): IT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:30 PM): CAUSE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:31 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:32 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:33 PM): MAKING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:34 PM): ME
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:36 PM): CRY
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:38 PM): AND
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:39 PM): I
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:41 PM): DONT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:43 PM): LIKE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:46 PM): IT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:49 PM): AT
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:50 PM): WELL
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:50 PM): TOO
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:51 PM): BAD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:51 PM): ALL
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:52 PM): CAUSE
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:52 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:53 PM): ARE
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:53 PM): GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:54 PM): OKAY
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:54 PM): AT
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:54 PM): LOTS
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:55 PM): OF
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:56 PM): STUFF
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:57 PM): SO
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:57 PM): I
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:58 PM): IM
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:58 PM): GOING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:59 PM): DO
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:59 PM): TO
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:00 PM): TELL
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:01 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:02 PM): LIKE
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:02 PM): THAT
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:03 PM): YOUR GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:04 PM): IT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:09 PM): GRANDMA
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:10 PM): DEB
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:15 PM): WEARS
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:16 PM): TIGHT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:18 PM): PANTS
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:20 PM): AND
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:21 PM): SEE
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:21 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:22 PM): GO
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:22 PM): FROM
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:23 PM): MAKING
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:24 PM): ME
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:24 PM): CRY
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:25 PM): TO
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:27 PM): LAUGH
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:35 PM): IM
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:36 PM): JUST REASON #22 WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <3
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:37 PM): AMAZING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:08 PM): JAMIE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:09 PM): SCOTT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:10 PM): IS
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:10 PM): SO
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:11 PM): SHORT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:13 PM): ITS
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:16 PM): ADORBALE
nvr lose hope92 (11:28:37 PM): okay, lets forget oth and go back to how amazing we are
nvr lose hope92 (11:28:38 PM): hahahahahah
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:51 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:52 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:53 PM): MORE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:54 PM): AMAZING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:55 PM): THEN
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:56 PM): ME
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:58 PM): BECAUSE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:03 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:04 PM): JUST
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:04 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:06 PM): GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:07 PM): FOR
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:09 PM): YOU?
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:23 PM): wait. what?
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:35 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:35 PM): ARE
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:36 PM): MORE
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:37 PM): AMAZING
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:38 PM): THAN
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:39 PM): ME
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:39 PM): MOST
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:41 PM): DEFINATELY
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:41 PM): SO
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:42 PM): SHUT
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:43 PM): UP
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:48 PM): END. OF. DISCUSSION.
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:51 PM): we
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:52 PM): are
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:54 PM): both
TriGerAlandSlide (11:30:03 PM): equally
TriGerAlandSlide (11:30:04 PM): as
TriGerAlandSlide (11:30:05 PM): amazing
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:20 PM): yes.
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:20 PM): that
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:21 PM): is
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:21 PM): a
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:22 PM): god
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:24 PM): good*
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:25 PM): assumption
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:26 PM): now
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:26 PM): come
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:27 PM): back
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:27 PM): to
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:28 PM): NC
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:29 PM): and
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:31 PM): i
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:32 PM): will
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:33 PM): get
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:35 PM): you
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:36 PM): a
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:37 PM): southern
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:40 PM): boyfriend
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:41 PM): and
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:42 PM): we'll
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:43 PM): have
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:44 PM): cheesey
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:50 PM): double-dates
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:20 PM): you
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:21 PM): need
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:21 PM): to
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:23 PM): hook
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:24 PM): me
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:25 PM): up
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:25 PM): with
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:27 PM): boys
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:29 PM): through
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:30 PM): the
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:32 PM): computer
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:32 PM): and
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:33 PM): it
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:34 PM): will
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:36 PM): make
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:37 PM): my
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:38 PM): life
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:40 PM): easier
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:43 PM): when
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:46 PM): i
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:48 PM): get
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:51 PM): there
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:33 PM): OKAY
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:35 PM): i
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:36 PM): will
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:37 PM): get
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:38 PM): william
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:38 PM): on
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:39 PM): the
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:40 PM): ball
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:40 PM): to
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:41 PM): find
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:42 PM): you
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:42 PM): a
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:44 PM): boyfriend
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:44 PM): like
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:45 PM): him
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:46 PM): that
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:46 PM): is
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:47 PM): goregous
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:49 PM): athletic
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:53 PM): and gentleman-ey
TriGerAlandSlide (11:32:56 PM): please
TriGerAlandSlide (11:32:57 PM): do
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:00 PM): and
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:01 PM): get
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:02 PM): back
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:02 PM): to
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:03 PM): me
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:04 PM): asap
nvr lose hope92 (11:33:21 PM): kay, i will!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:32 PM): thank you
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:36 PM): beautiful!!!!
nvr lose hope92 (11:33:47 PM): you are welcome goregous!
okay, i mean, really? how would i make it through life without my maygen lauren gibbons? oh right, i wouldn't.
i love her and miss her and i'm SO excited for go to school near me.
maygen lauren gibbons, i love you so much! :)
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:05 PM): mrs. austin nichols
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:10 PM): & mrs. will
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:12 PM): why yes, yes you can!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:15 PM): this is amazing.
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:19 PM): i love our lives
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:27 PM): i love you for being in my life
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:27 PM): spesh cause ur my friend
TriGerAlandSlide (11:23:31 PM):
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:34 PM):
nvr lose hope92 (11:23:43 PM): youz mah bass fraaaaan
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:00 PM): likewise! dont make me cry
nvr lose hope92 (11:24:20 PM): cuz you sang me SWEET SILVER LINING when muh grammie died and i still play it when i'm sad and it makes me cryyyyy cause your so sweet
nvr lose hope92 (11:24:21 PM):
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:23 PM): ive got u makin me cry! and millie writing down the things that evil bitch mom told brooke she couldnt dooo
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:31 PM):
nvr lose hope92 (11:24:37 PM): you've got me makin me cry
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:49 PM): !!!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:24:59 PM): im not good with words, out loud...
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:06 PM): but i can write, and sing.. horrribly
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:12 PM): you sing WONDERFULLY
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:14 PM): so shut up
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:27 PM): NO I DONT
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:30 PM): YES YOU DO
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:36 PM): YOU SING GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:40 PM): I DO NO!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:43 PM): T
TriGerAlandSlide (11:25:45 PM): NOT
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:45 PM): and thats super sized
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:47 PM): YES
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:48 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:49 PM): DO
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:50 PM): SING
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:53 PM): VERY
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:53 PM): WELL
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:54 PM): AND
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:54 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:55 PM): NEED
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:56 PM): TO
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:56 PM): HAVE
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:57 PM): SOME
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:58 PM): FAITH
nvr lose hope92 (11:25:58 PM): IN
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:00 PM): YOURSELF
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:01 PM): CAUSE
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:02 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:03 PM): BOMB
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:04 PM): SINGING!
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:05 PM): IN A
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:06 PM): GOOD
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:07 PM): WAY
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:07 PM): SO
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:08 PM): SHUT
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:09 PM): UP
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:10 PM): NOW
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:13 PM): JORDAN
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:15 PM): Taylor
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:17 PM): GOODWIN
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:19 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:19 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:20 PM): THE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:23 PM): SWEETEST
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:24 PM): PERSON
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:24 PM): EVER
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:27 PM): STOP
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:27 PM): IT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:30 PM): CAUSE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:31 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:32 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:33 PM): MAKING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:34 PM): ME
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:36 PM): CRY
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:38 PM): AND
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:39 PM): I
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:41 PM): DONT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:43 PM): LIKE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:46 PM): IT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:49 PM): AT
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:50 PM): WELL
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:50 PM): TOO
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:51 PM): BAD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:51 PM): ALL
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:52 PM): CAUSE
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:52 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:53 PM): ARE
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:53 PM): GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:54 PM): OKAY
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:54 PM): AT
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:54 PM): LOTS
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:55 PM): OF
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:56 PM): STUFF
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:57 PM): SO
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:57 PM): I
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:58 PM): IM
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:58 PM): GOING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:26:59 PM): DO
nvr lose hope92 (11:26:59 PM): TO
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:00 PM): TELL
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:01 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:02 PM): LIKE
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:02 PM): THAT
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:03 PM): YOUR GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:04 PM): IT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:09 PM): GRANDMA
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:10 PM): DEB
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:15 PM): WEARS
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:16 PM): TIGHT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:18 PM): PANTS
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:20 PM): AND
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:21 PM): SEE
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:21 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:22 PM): GO
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:22 PM): FROM
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:23 PM): MAKING
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:24 PM): ME
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:24 PM): CRY
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:25 PM): TO
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:27 PM): LAUGH
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:35 PM): IM
nvr lose hope92 (11:27:36 PM): JUST REASON #22 WHY I LOVE YOU SO MUCH <3
TriGerAlandSlide (11:27:37 PM): AMAZING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:08 PM): JAMIE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:09 PM): SCOTT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:10 PM): IS
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:10 PM): SO
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:11 PM): SHORT
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:13 PM): ITS
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:16 PM): ADORBALE
nvr lose hope92 (11:28:37 PM): okay, lets forget oth and go back to how amazing we are
nvr lose hope92 (11:28:38 PM): hahahahahah
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:51 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:52 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:53 PM): MORE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:54 PM): AMAZING
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:55 PM): THEN
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:56 PM): ME
TriGerAlandSlide (11:28:58 PM): BECAUSE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:03 PM): YOU
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:04 PM): JUST
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:04 PM): ARE
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:06 PM): GOOD
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:07 PM): FOR
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:09 PM): YOU?
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:23 PM): wait. what?
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:35 PM): YOU
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:35 PM): ARE
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:36 PM): MORE
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:37 PM): AMAZING
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:38 PM): THAN
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:39 PM): ME
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:39 PM): MOST
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:41 PM): DEFINATELY
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:41 PM): SO
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:42 PM): SHUT
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:43 PM): UP
nvr lose hope92 (11:29:48 PM): END. OF. DISCUSSION.
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:51 PM): we
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:52 PM): are
TriGerAlandSlide (11:29:54 PM): both
TriGerAlandSlide (11:30:03 PM): equally
TriGerAlandSlide (11:30:04 PM): as
TriGerAlandSlide (11:30:05 PM): amazing
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:20 PM): yes.
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:20 PM): that
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:21 PM): is
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:21 PM): a
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:22 PM): god
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:24 PM): good*
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:25 PM): assumption
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:26 PM): now
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:26 PM): come
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:27 PM): back
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:27 PM): to
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:28 PM): NC
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:29 PM): and
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:31 PM): i
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:32 PM): will
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:33 PM): get
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:35 PM): you
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:36 PM): a
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:37 PM): southern
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:40 PM): boyfriend
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:41 PM): and
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:42 PM): we'll
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:43 PM): have
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:44 PM): cheesey
nvr lose hope92 (11:30:50 PM): double-dates
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:20 PM): you
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:21 PM): need
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:21 PM): to
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:23 PM): hook
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:24 PM): me
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:25 PM): up
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:25 PM): with
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:27 PM): boys
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:29 PM): through
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:30 PM): the
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:32 PM): computer
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:32 PM): and
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:33 PM): it
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:34 PM): will
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:36 PM): make
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:37 PM): my
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:38 PM): life
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:40 PM): easier
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:43 PM): when
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:46 PM): i
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:48 PM): get
TriGerAlandSlide (11:31:51 PM): there
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:33 PM): OKAY
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:35 PM): i
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:36 PM): will
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:37 PM): get
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:38 PM): william
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:38 PM): on
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:39 PM): the
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:40 PM): ball
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:40 PM): to
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:41 PM): find
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:42 PM): you
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:42 PM): a
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:44 PM): boyfriend
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:44 PM): like
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:45 PM): him
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:46 PM): that
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:46 PM): is
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:47 PM): goregous
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:49 PM): athletic
nvr lose hope92 (11:32:53 PM): and gentleman-ey
TriGerAlandSlide (11:32:56 PM): please
TriGerAlandSlide (11:32:57 PM): do
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:00 PM): and
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:01 PM): get
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:02 PM): back
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:02 PM): to
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:03 PM): me
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:04 PM): asap
nvr lose hope92 (11:33:21 PM): kay, i will!
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:32 PM): thank you
TriGerAlandSlide (11:33:36 PM): beautiful!!!!
nvr lose hope92 (11:33:47 PM): you are welcome goregous!
okay, i mean, really? how would i make it through life without my maygen lauren gibbons? oh right, i wouldn't.
i love her and miss her and i'm SO excited for go to school near me.
maygen lauren gibbons, i love you so much! :)
dissapointment in people...
hmm. I don't know what to say too much. I'm just dissapointed in people. but only certain people. and not because of something they did, but because of what they didn't do. which seems to be the case with me mostly. but i've also been surprised by certain people. ever since grandma died, it seems like the people i expected most to be there for me.. kinda, 'left'. not physically, just, aren't very supportive. they never ask how i am, is there anything they can do, or offer to lend an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on. and those are the people i would have thought that would have offered it most. and it hurts. just.. its as if those people don't care. i know they do, and they probably don't even realize it, but.. it still hurts to think that they don't care enough to think about how its effecting me.
but maybe they do think about it, and just don't know how to talk about it. which i understand. but, i just wish they'd TELL me that. that the're uncomfy talking about suicide, or that they don't know what to say, or that i'm in their thoughts & prayers.
and then, the people that i thought would have never in a million years would have stepped up like they did, have. i would have never thought that i would be telling this person all the stuff i do. or that they'd have so much insight.
but, there is just people that haven't done ANYTHING. nothing. and it completely blew (and still does) me away. and when i make vauge refrences to it, they never say anything about it. just say 'oh okay' and go on, or make a joke about it, and never think twice.
out of all the stuff that happened since may 31st, what i've seen in these peope have surprised me the most.
but maybe they do think about it, and just don't know how to talk about it. which i understand. but, i just wish they'd TELL me that. that the're uncomfy talking about suicide, or that they don't know what to say, or that i'm in their thoughts & prayers.
and then, the people that i thought would have never in a million years would have stepped up like they did, have. i would have never thought that i would be telling this person all the stuff i do. or that they'd have so much insight.
but, there is just people that haven't done ANYTHING. nothing. and it completely blew (and still does) me away. and when i make vauge refrences to it, they never say anything about it. just say 'oh okay' and go on, or make a joke about it, and never think twice.
out of all the stuff that happened since may 31st, what i've seen in these peope have surprised me the most.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
welcome to senior year, how may i make your life as miserable as possible?
so, i know i've been a senior for over a week now, but its SUPER official today with all my friends becomming seniors.
so far, this is what i've learned.
1) the crazy person who writes the online A&P tests' do NOT use subject-verb agreement, anddddd the questions are most definately trick questions.
1a) they completely condricdt themselves, and i just wanna SCREAM and punch somebody.
2) that reading my A&P book will bring a flood of memories from mrs. julia and make me want to cry every time i read about mitosis & nucleous' & DNA.
3) my 'highschool' bio and chem books were WAY more fun. i love dr. jay wile more than whoever wrote these text books.
4) my world civ class ends 2 hours before the first state football game begins. yay.
5) stress factor is at an all time high
6) teachers are complete douchebags.
Dear God, one word. Graduation. Amen.
so far, this is what i've learned.
1) the crazy person who writes the online A&P tests' do NOT use subject-verb agreement, anddddd the questions are most definately trick questions.
1a) they completely condricdt themselves, and i just wanna SCREAM and punch somebody.
2) that reading my A&P book will bring a flood of memories from mrs. julia and make me want to cry every time i read about mitosis & nucleous' & DNA.
3) my 'highschool' bio and chem books were WAY more fun. i love dr. jay wile more than whoever wrote these text books.
4) my world civ class ends 2 hours before the first state football game begins. yay.
5) stress factor is at an all time high
6) teachers are complete douchebags.
Dear God, one word. Graduation. Amen.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
its never too late . . .
i always meant to blog about this, but never did. and now feels like a good time to do so.
a really really good friend of mine (who means the world to me) wrote this. its acutally about leyton, but its so much more than just 2 fictional characters. to me, at least.
"To her, he's the man who somehow got her to let go of all those reasons she'd convinced herself not to fall for someone. He convinced her that she's deserving of her own happiness, and there's nothing wrong with doing something for herself.
He convinced her that love doesn't have to hurt, and maybe not everyone is going to break her heart."
isn't it amazing? okay. so. at the time i was waiting for that 'someone'. i found him now. :) either way, its still absolutely terrifying. what if it doesn't work out? i'll have my heart broken and just dieeeee like all my friends have. i've lost so many people that were so close to my heart, i was afraid to let somebody else in, when tehre was a chance that they could leave too. so i kept myself from even thinking about love. thinking about falling. nothing was worth it, i decided i had rather "never loved than to loved and to have lost" because i knew the hurt from losing loved ones. grandma godwin. mr. gearld. phoebe. (yes, that was my dog)mrs. julia. grandma bailey. sooo influincial in my life, in sooo many ways. everytime i would finally get over someone dying, something else would happen.. and i had just decided that there was no need to willingly sign myself up for more hurt. besides, who really finds their soulmate at age 16 anyway? but i've heard lyrics all my life that always stuck out to me, from Lee Ann Womack's "i hope you dance".
loving might be a mistake but its worth making
so i was like, aw, thats sweet. but it always stuck with me, always in the back of my mind.
&then i read what she wrote. and we all know who she is, but i'm gonna say it cause i can. sheena marie casselman. [or is it cassleman? i think casselman. idk. FREAKING CANADIAN NAMES!] ANYWAYYYYY! she wrote it. and it was my facebook status for a year. because i thought, even tho this is like, 'fake', somebody believes that there is someone worth taking that risk for. someone who will show her that not everybody is gonna break her heart. that happiness doesn't have to come from a funny joke, or a certain 4 legged creature. someone to make her want to let go of all those reasons.
somebody believes this. somebody knows that loving might be a mistake, but its dang worth making.
she gave me hope. hope that there could be somebody out there. that someone was out there. and not to give up on all men. even tho track record's showed otherwise, to keep going.
so, with my newfound hope, i was like, 'alright. i'm not gonna look, but i'm not so .. against the thought of love.' so thats what i did. i just went along, thinking that everything happened for a reason, and if something happened it would happen. on its on, without me being little miss flirt, oooor begging anybody. if he came along, he would come along.
well lets just say he came along..
a really really good friend of mine (who means the world to me) wrote this. its acutally about leyton, but its so much more than just 2 fictional characters. to me, at least.
"To her, he's the man who somehow got her to let go of all those reasons she'd convinced herself not to fall for someone. He convinced her that she's deserving of her own happiness, and there's nothing wrong with doing something for herself.
He convinced her that love doesn't have to hurt, and maybe not everyone is going to break her heart."
isn't it amazing? okay. so. at the time i was waiting for that 'someone'. i found him now. :) either way, its still absolutely terrifying. what if it doesn't work out? i'll have my heart broken and just dieeeee like all my friends have. i've lost so many people that were so close to my heart, i was afraid to let somebody else in, when tehre was a chance that they could leave too. so i kept myself from even thinking about love. thinking about falling. nothing was worth it, i decided i had rather "never loved than to loved and to have lost" because i knew the hurt from losing loved ones. grandma godwin. mr. gearld. phoebe. (yes, that was my dog)mrs. julia. grandma bailey. sooo influincial in my life, in sooo many ways. everytime i would finally get over someone dying, something else would happen.. and i had just decided that there was no need to willingly sign myself up for more hurt. besides, who really finds their soulmate at age 16 anyway? but i've heard lyrics all my life that always stuck out to me, from Lee Ann Womack's "i hope you dance".
loving might be a mistake but its worth making
so i was like, aw, thats sweet. but it always stuck with me, always in the back of my mind.
&then i read what she wrote. and we all know who she is, but i'm gonna say it cause i can. sheena marie casselman. [or is it cassleman? i think casselman. idk. FREAKING CANADIAN NAMES!] ANYWAYYYYY! she wrote it. and it was my facebook status for a year. because i thought, even tho this is like, 'fake', somebody believes that there is someone worth taking that risk for. someone who will show her that not everybody is gonna break her heart. that happiness doesn't have to come from a funny joke, or a certain 4 legged creature. someone to make her want to let go of all those reasons.
somebody believes this. somebody knows that loving might be a mistake, but its dang worth making.
she gave me hope. hope that there could be somebody out there. that someone was out there. and not to give up on all men. even tho track record's showed otherwise, to keep going.
so, with my newfound hope, i was like, 'alright. i'm not gonna look, but i'm not so .. against the thought of love.' so thats what i did. i just went along, thinking that everything happened for a reason, and if something happened it would happen. on its on, without me being little miss flirt, oooor begging anybody. if he came along, he would come along.
well lets just say he came along..
saturday <3
so. yesterday was saturday. a SMAZING day. here's what happened & why it was so amazing.
1) i had wanted to go to raleigh to get a new state shirt for the meet the pack day, next saturday. mom said i could go as long as somebody went with me. everybody was busy tho.
2) so we decided to go to mortex. i run into him there! he asks why i'm not going to raleigh. i told him why. he said he would take me. so, off we go.
3) i get to raleigh. go in alumni hall. get an adorable black shirt with NC State & mr. wuf on it. then we get ice cream cones. half way through, we trade. so predictable. anyway. we walk to the car, and its raining. of course. so we kinda almost kiss in the rain. enough for my heart to go crazy though (:
4) get home. chilax. do nothing all afternoon.
5) start talking to sheena. talk to her pretty much all day. AH-mazing.
6) he 'shows' me how to light the grill. i let him teach me. even tho i've been lighting the grill for years.
7) we made our first dish together. slaw. i laughed more than i breathed, but oh well.
8) had our sexy dinner, which was veryyyyyyy good. go daddy for cooking delish steaks.
9) i got sick. so i went to sleep in his lap, woke up with a pillow underneath me, and he said some stuff to sheena that i'm still curious about.
10) we did nothing, again. i love nothing.
11) he had to leave. but before he left i got ambushed. :) only sheena knows what that means, but its okay.
12) we didn't say goodbye.
so that was amazing. :) &sheena was a hgue part of it, and i'm glad that she hates us for being so darn cute & perfect, and i'm very glad i could get away with murder with him. i still smile over it :)
1) i had wanted to go to raleigh to get a new state shirt for the meet the pack day, next saturday. mom said i could go as long as somebody went with me. everybody was busy tho.
2) so we decided to go to mortex. i run into him there! he asks why i'm not going to raleigh. i told him why. he said he would take me. so, off we go.
3) i get to raleigh. go in alumni hall. get an adorable black shirt with NC State & mr. wuf on it. then we get ice cream cones. half way through, we trade. so predictable. anyway. we walk to the car, and its raining. of course. so we kinda almost kiss in the rain. enough for my heart to go crazy though (:
4) get home. chilax. do nothing all afternoon.
5) start talking to sheena. talk to her pretty much all day. AH-mazing.
6) he 'shows' me how to light the grill. i let him teach me. even tho i've been lighting the grill for years.
7) we made our first dish together. slaw. i laughed more than i breathed, but oh well.
8) had our sexy dinner, which was veryyyyyyy good. go daddy for cooking delish steaks.
9) i got sick. so i went to sleep in his lap, woke up with a pillow underneath me, and he said some stuff to sheena that i'm still curious about.
10) we did nothing, again. i love nothing.
11) he had to leave. but before he left i got ambushed. :) only sheena knows what that means, but its okay.
12) we didn't say goodbye.
so that was amazing. :) &sheena was a hgue part of it, and i'm glad that she hates us for being so darn cute & perfect, and i'm very glad i could get away with murder with him. i still smile over it :)
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