Dancing My Way to College; by Hilary Meg Piner, aka Bo

heeey guys! so. if you're in this area, you know that Hilary Piner hosted, put together, choreographed, decoroated, & did EVERYTHING for her senior project, a dance recital. well, it was tonight. & me? i can't really dance. js. but Bo [Hilary, its.. a long story. she's Bo, & I'm Jo.. she started the Jo nickname in 7th grade :) ] is an AMAZiNG dancer, so i knew it'd be good. i just had no clue it'd be THAT good. i was speechless. i smiled the whole time. it. was. amazing. like... ahh! hahaha. she choreographed all the dances, except 1, which her dance instructors danced to. iiiiiii loved it. faves? all. hahaha no, top fave would be Freeze, theeeen her & michaels dance, [which i did get teary eyed over, and i'll talk about later] and when i grow up. AND her pointe dance in the begining! & OMG, who wasn't crying during "do i make you proud" for her parents? wow. & Talen is such a great dancer! i loved waching him. & elani was gorg! & everybodyyyyy else :)

so anywayyyyy. i LOVED it. & i left her a voicemail as i left, and i was like, "BO! babe. okay. here's what i have to say. if you can do all this at SEVENTEEN [17], you're gonna be UNTOUCHABLE after college" i am like, SO excited to see where she goes, cause its gonna be AMAZING. in 10 years, when we have Dancing With the Stars, version 42, she'll be the carrie ann judge. no doubt about it. OR she could be like the leader of the dallas cowboy cheerleaders. or their choreographer. OR like, the most amazing dancer ever. wait. no or there. she IS going to be an amazing dancer. WHOAAAA everybody. she ALREADY IS. everything was sooo graceful :) her pointe was really good, & her dance to Keep Holding On for her grandma was BEAUTIFUL. ahhh. i'm just.. eek! :)

so. her & michael's dance. i was talking to alexie earlier, & telling her about it, and i said [and alexie will quote!] "dude. if they had been like, 25 or something, i SO would have expected him to get on one knee and propose at the end of that dance. it was soooooooo cute. & sweet. & AWEEEEEYYYYY! it was so so so so so pretttyyyyy! i love love love loveddd the song choice :) & the lifts were schmazing! ahhh. go hilary & michael :)

soooo yeahhh.. hilary will be teaching the future husband & i how to dance for our first dance hahaha. it was gorg. OH! whoa. her first wedding dance is gonna be amazing. i just realized that hahaha. ahh. i'm excited for her to hurry up & go to college & graduate & go to the beach & open a studio so i can helppp! but wait. we're the same age. & the same year in school. so. that would mean that I'M going to be out of college & a big girl by then. soooo. we can wait on that :) hahahaha.

so, hilary meg piner, i love you. you were amazing. i'm so proud of you, & i can't wait to see what else you can do :)

xoxo

sooo... i fail.

so. i said i was gonna do a thanksgiving blog... well that was a week ago. haven't done it.

i also said i was gonna do a loverr & beefay blog. that was last saturday. haven't done it yet.

ooooh well.

here's whats up with me, since i know y'all care so much.

-finals in 11 days. kill me please.
-1 semester away from not being a high school student anymore.
- i looooove my friends, so so so so much.
-danielle & i are definately blood sisters... we were seperated at birth. i think i could only love her this much as a sister.
-mallory is freaking amazing. her & her indian-ness ; hahaha. & she can put MY chaps on ;) hahaha, i loooove you PAiGEY!
-uh.. guys are.. wierd. & complicated. seriously, i know girls are wierd too, but all you have to do is tell us we're pretty, give us chocolate, & TEXT BACK. sorry. that just, like, eirks me. okay. thats not a word.. but y'all know. without taking like, 15 minutes to say "nm doin hw" like LEGIT ppl. it takes less than 5 seconds to say nm & hit send. ughey. okay.

aaaaaand one other thing. if you know 1 thing that makes me INSANELY happy, & is redicly easy to do, WHY don't you do it? it takes YOU less than a minute, & ughhhh! oh wait. you prolly forgot. i told you. flat. out. told. you. & you did it like, twice, & i was on top of the moooon. & then you stopped. guys have no brains.. sorry. js.

but i love love love love jess :) & danielle. & mallory. & danielle's facebook! hahaha. & annie. & maygen. & ughey i miss my giiiiiirls!

so yeah. there's alot of other stuff i could say... but i'll save that for another day.

loverrrr & beefay.

okay you guys.

if you follow me on twitter (if not, you SHOULD! www.twitter.com/itsjoyaknow ) or are friends with me on facebook, you prollllllyyyyy know that i get to see danielle & mallory [loverrrr & beefay, respectively] on saturday.

like, i'm more excited about seeing them than i am, for christmas. [with my balllller christmas present, hahaha] but guys. seriously. i. CANNOT. stand it. i honestly don't think i've been THIS excited for anything in a really, really, really long time. [esp. after may 31st... js.]

AND! y'all. danielle is 40 minutes away now.
shes in raleigh.
lunging Harvey.
& she called me.
and im like, YOU'RE NOT 4 HOURS & 45 MINUTES AWAY NOWWWWW!
omg.
but it still seems SOOOOO long off.
i have to go through tomorrow.
tomorrow night's drive to the beach.
friday. & trying not to get killed by meagan. or meghan. or megan. idk. idc.
& not being served cianyde [sp?] jello shots.
don't ask about that last one. itsssss & loverrrrr&boo kinda thing.
that happened this morning.
hahahahahahahaha wowwwww.
sorry. i just thought about our convo this morning, ittttt was redic.

but then again, its redic how much i miss & love & can't wait to see her.
so.
expect facebook, youtube, and this blog to BLOW UP come sunday.

& ima post a thanksgiving post tomorrow :)

loveee y'alllllllll :D

its the most wonderful time of the year...

i generally LOVE the holidays.
love love love.
& i do.

but now, i'm just..
scared & dreading them.
everybody thinks i'm doing faaaantastic w/ the whole grandma deal.
everybody but 2 people.
& i get to see all of those "everybody"'s within the next month & a half.
& i'm afraid i'm gonna break down infront of them.
& that would notttt be good.

so, as thanksgiving & then christmas approaches, i get to continue my wonderful ability of hiding my emotions & lying.
yay.

& then wait to talk to amy & danielle & cry hysterically & spill my guts to the only 2 people that really know whats going on.

yayyy.

ON a sweet note, i get to see beefay & loverrrrrr [mallory paige cobb & danielle taylor plourd] in 5 days. i'm about to cry i'm so excited.

& danielle has been teaching me lessons. & i loveeeee them! & her.
&its definatelyyyyy interesting, hahaha.
& some people are just SOOOO mature! aaack.

but i also dislike it when people think they know whats going on & offer advice when in reality they've known me for a MONTH. no shug, you don't know what i'm going through, so please, no thank you.

but y'all, these 3 people make me so happy. & i need to end this on a happy note. because i surprisingly have been REALLY happy this past week. well thats over now but its okay, cause the only man who has my heart is my daddy <3
so. here's to the people i can always count on <3

i'm scared.

i lost count of how many times i've typed a message here.
& i keep erasing it.

because i'm afraid that it will reveal too much.

or be too vauge.

or that one person will read it & freak out.
& i coudldn't stand losing that person.


I'm also afraid of getting too close.
&having that person leave.
like everyone else has.


I'm afraid that nobody will ever know.
& that i'll go my whole life with this feeling.
I'm afraid that i'll never come to peace with it.
i'm afraid that i'm trying SO hard to get over it, that i never will.


I'm afraid that i will fail.


i'm afraid that i'm getting too deep.
infact i know i am.
but i can't stop myself.


& i know i'm setting myself up for a major heartache.
but i can't stop myself.

i just wish you knew how much this has changed me.
because i'll never be the same.

& the truth is..

. . . everytime you call me baby, i melt inside.

grrr. & MUSiC!

okay. little rant here. i'm just REALLY mad & upset & frusterated & furious. so. mom *thought* she saw a mouse in the pantry. *thought*. SO. i had [still am, but im taking a break] to throw away EVERY single box of food we have in the pantry. EVERYTHING. 4 trashbags FULL of food. because there COULD be a mouse that COULD have gotten into the food. 4 trashbags. FULL. OF. FOOD. perfectly good food. i have YET to find any evidence of this mysterious mouse. but whatever. SO. we no longer have ANY typical food. cereal, crackers, cookies, oatmeal, potatoe chips, whatever is normally in a pantry we no longer have any. SO, i'm working my freaking butt off in there, throwing away food, seperating it so we can give some to the dogs, just, REALLY mad cause moms NOT helping "because she might see it". uh huh. and this is AFTER i complain about my really bad cramps & how i was looking foward to just chillaxing this afternoon. after i take her to michaels, sams, walmart, and other stores. we're gone from like 10-3. then i get to do all that crap. so THEN she tells me to go get the clorox out of the shop and put it in a spray bottle & clorox the now empty pantry. oookkkeeeyyyy doke. so i come in, and she tells me to go ahead & clorox the floor [we have linoleium flooring in the kitchen, the hardwood floors haven't been installed in there yet] while she goes with papa to ride around on the gator around the fields. yeah, i'm pretty sure my devil horns are visible.

BUT! good news.
i heard 2 AMAZING songs todayyyy! i'm excited about it. the first one is "two is better than one" by boys like girls & taylor swift, and the 2nd one is "if you only knew" by shinedown. i love shinedown more & more everyday. so here's linkageeeee! =)


& i'm completely serious that these 2 songs have made my day. i'm staying with peggy tonight, thankfully.& danielle hasn't gotten home yet. so my loverrrrr hasn't been able to releave my stress yet =) [&annie &mayg, yes, thats a vuage reference to YKWYW chapter 22, haha. oh &sheena would get that too <3 ] ANYWAY! the songs. if you only knew;

two is better than one;