its FRiDAY!

so. today is friday. i love friday's (: yesterday, i FiNALLY got to see MORGAN! all the pics above are from our outing (: we went to rue 21, target, and starbucks. yes, it was over 80 degree's and we went to starbucks. anyway. it was so great to see her and hang out with her, i had a BLAST. AND last night i got to TALK to maygen for like 20 minutes. it was great. and then we had major issues with our laptopness lol. but. i loved talking to her. and my upside down carmle something-latte was amazing.

today, there was a benefit for mrs julia... but it was kinda changed to benefit her family. so we went there, and i ended up leaving mom and and comming home. it was so great to see everybody again, and even though there was some tears shed (mostly behind closed doors) everybody seemed to be happy and cheery. since it was at mt. zion church, i was able to see grandma. i hadn't been to see in a while, so it was good to see her. i was able to go out there by myself, so it was nice to just have a convo with her w/o the parentals around. i really miss her... i can't believe its been over 4 years since she died. wow. talk about time going by... but i enjoy our little talks. but it sucks that the cemetary is like an hour away and i've prolly been there like 5 times since the funeral.. but i'm okay with it. i think is kinda like 'out of sight, out of mind' hence why we don't go there. anyway. robert is having some 'issues'. :( its really really sad... but he seemed to be pretty good today. he had a little train of girls following him everywhere he went, haha. but its still so hard to believe that its been 8 days, ya know? its just... :'(

so anyway when i got home, i was kinda in a slump mood, so when i checked my email and i saw that TRY ME was updated, i got estatic. cause it was the chapter after the 'kiss'. so i knew it would be good ; i just didn't know it was going to be THAT good! OMGOMGOMG. it was AMAZING. seriously. i about had a heart attack...AHHH. and just YES! annie/maygen/sheena know what im talking about. so anyway, it made today AMAZING. i re-read it like a THOUSAND times. (: and then annie posted a new chap to her once-oneshot, and it was so cute and fluffy. totally grinable. (: and i was planning on writing while i had some alone time, but dern sheena just HAD to post that chapter ,now i can't even take my eyes off it! but im notttt complaining. and then annie and i had this whole lyric game quote thingey, it was cute. and then i freaked maygen out and i called her and liek SCREAMED "OMGGG TRY ME WAS UPDATEDDDDD" an then she was like "OH **** IM ON A TRAIN. you HAVE to email me the link so i can read it..." she wasn't thrilled that she couldn't read it haha. but its so amazinggggg. im in looooove. yaaaay. and i've been talking to the author of try me alot too, which is really cool. shes way cool, and its really fun to know the person whos writing the stories and all.

on a somewhat better note, rocky seems to be doing OK. he lets us soak his foot for the whole 30 minutes now, and we put up a gate on the back porch so he stays on the deck durring the day, where its shaded by the awning, and then at night we put him in the garage so he's 'inside' and away from the dirt and bugs and all. he seems to be a 'little' better.. and hes still really good about us helping him. he hasn't growled or anything at us. (: but rocky got out this morning in the yard while papa was fixing the gate so mom dragged me outta bed at like 7 am to rub him so he would stay still. while i was in my pink polka-dotted pajama's [which im ready to screw! haha] and my like ginormous teeshirt. adn then she 'had' to take pictures cause it was so cute. never mind i practically slept the whole time i rubbed him, haha.

so i kinda have to decide... ugh. cause tomorrow i could either a) go to the show and possibly see callie and becca, or b) stay here and have amy come over... && im torn. ughhhh. but i dont' really want to go to the show and see those girls, but i really really really want to see taylor and becca. ugh. but i want to have major girl time with amy too. GAH. i hate decisions, lol.

sooooo. thats whats been going on, since, yesterday. wow. lol. craaaazy much? think so. enjoy <3

here we gooooo...

so. here's the first blog. not sure exately how this is ganna go ; but we'll figure it out. these past 2 weeks have been really, REALLY hard. with losing julia, lazlo, mr. singmaster, school, drama, and now the prognosis with rocky, its just been HARD. && i'm ever so thankful for my friends who have been there for me. taylor, maygen, and amy.. you guys have seriously gotten me through. so apparently a Brown Recluse spider bit rocky, and hes NOTTT doing good... we'll see how that pans out.. but im thinking not very good. they said there wasn't really much they could do other than just clean it, which they did, and they gave us medicine and stuff to give him.. and just said good lucky. but they were really sweet, and rocky was SUCH a goodboy :D and ya know the quote, "you don't know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have", well, i've been kinda doing that lately... && at times, i've surprised myself with the strength that i've had. but other times, i just cry and let the tears fall. so. its most definately been a roller coaster ride.. && yeahhh. but. on a happier note, the red/white game was this past saturday, and after the game they had a 'meet & greet', a.k.a., 'meet your future boyfriends' as maygen and i called it. and i got to meet alotta football players so it was all good, but russel had to leave @ halftime cause of freaking baseball. UGH. i still haven't met him.. :( BUT. talk about saving the best for last ; as we were leaving, i saw #3 and since i'm so amazing with names, dad said that it was curtis underwood, and i was like "awh i want my picture taken with himmmm' so we went down there, and he was so sweet (: and funny and it was just yeah. made me laugh ; something i really needed. so after talking and taking a pic, he ended up taking my hat and my D&G sunglasses and put them on [which was quite hilarious actually] and gave me his HELMENT [chyeuhh] to put on.. so i did.. and he has a small head! or i have a big head or something. but anyway. it was so cute.. my dad was laughing, and yall know my dad. he DOESN'T laugh. but anyway. i got a new phone this past weekend too! yaaay. the motorola KRAVE. be jealous. its pretty sweet. so i'm missing like everybodies phone numbers now though, ugh.

one tree hill FiNALLY came back on monday ; YAAAY! my life can start again. :D it was a really really good, sweet episode. but. only 4 left. i will cry. seroiusly. the next epi is ganna be good, we have a whole flashback stuff with leyton that i'm totally looking foward to :D also, try me was updated lke 4 days in a row, and we *finally* 'got there'! maygen and i FLIPPED out. omg. it was amazing. so, i was so ready for that story to get there, and it finally did :D Life is Beautiful was updated as well, and she wrote a special part, just for me! i really needed it too after this morning. maygs STILL hasn't updated DH, and its killllling me. ugh. shes ganna post my 1S soon, so im so excited. i haven't read it, and shes just given me like 200 words from the begining.. but im okay, cause i want to be completely surprised at how it is. but its going to be amazing, i knowwwwww it. and i can't wait. so im really ready for DH to be over with in that case! but im going to cry when its over, cuz thats what brought us togetherrrrrr. anywayyy.

but i've also found myself listening to ALOT of music lately, and as danielle reminded me, when words fail, music speaks. and it does. i've listened to alot of different stuff, and found strength and comfort in the songs, and its most deff. helped. so there.

welpppp ; idk how this is supposed to go, but anyways. enjoy <33