here we gooooo...

so. here's the first blog. not sure exately how this is ganna go ; but we'll figure it out. these past 2 weeks have been really, REALLY hard. with losing julia, lazlo, mr. singmaster, school, drama, and now the prognosis with rocky, its just been HARD. && i'm ever so thankful for my friends who have been there for me. taylor, maygen, and amy.. you guys have seriously gotten me through. so apparently a Brown Recluse spider bit rocky, and hes NOTTT doing good... we'll see how that pans out.. but im thinking not very good. they said there wasn't really much they could do other than just clean it, which they did, and they gave us medicine and stuff to give him.. and just said good lucky. but they were really sweet, and rocky was SUCH a goodboy :D and ya know the quote, "you don't know how strong you are until being strong is the only option you have", well, i've been kinda doing that lately... && at times, i've surprised myself with the strength that i've had. but other times, i just cry and let the tears fall. so. its most definately been a roller coaster ride.. && yeahhh. but. on a happier note, the red/white game was this past saturday, and after the game they had a 'meet & greet', a.k.a., 'meet your future boyfriends' as maygen and i called it. and i got to meet alotta football players so it was all good, but russel had to leave @ halftime cause of freaking baseball. UGH. i still haven't met him.. :( BUT. talk about saving the best for last ; as we were leaving, i saw #3 and since i'm so amazing with names, dad said that it was curtis underwood, and i was like "awh i want my picture taken with himmmm' so we went down there, and he was so sweet (: and funny and it was just yeah. made me laugh ; something i really needed. so after talking and taking a pic, he ended up taking my hat and my D&G sunglasses and put them on [which was quite hilarious actually] and gave me his HELMENT [chyeuhh] to put on.. so i did.. and he has a small head! or i have a big head or something. but anyway. it was so cute.. my dad was laughing, and yall know my dad. he DOESN'T laugh. but anyway. i got a new phone this past weekend too! yaaay. the motorola KRAVE. be jealous. its pretty sweet. so i'm missing like everybodies phone numbers now though, ugh.

one tree hill FiNALLY came back on monday ; YAAAY! my life can start again. :D it was a really really good, sweet episode. but. only 4 left. i will cry. seroiusly. the next epi is ganna be good, we have a whole flashback stuff with leyton that i'm totally looking foward to :D also, try me was updated lke 4 days in a row, and we *finally* 'got there'! maygen and i FLIPPED out. omg. it was amazing. so, i was so ready for that story to get there, and it finally did :D Life is Beautiful was updated as well, and she wrote a special part, just for me! i really needed it too after this morning. maygs STILL hasn't updated DH, and its killllling me. ugh. shes ganna post my 1S soon, so im so excited. i haven't read it, and shes just given me like 200 words from the begining.. but im okay, cause i want to be completely surprised at how it is. but its going to be amazing, i knowwwwww it. and i can't wait. so im really ready for DH to be over with in that case! but im going to cry when its over, cuz thats what brought us togetherrrrrr. anywayyy.

but i've also found myself listening to ALOT of music lately, and as danielle reminded me, when words fail, music speaks. and it does. i've listened to alot of different stuff, and found strength and comfort in the songs, and its most deff. helped. so there.

welpppp ; idk how this is supposed to go, but anyways. enjoy <33