loved & lost?

Got a date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says he's crazy
I'll have to wait and see

I finally moved to Jackson when the summer came
I won't have to pay that boy to rake my leaves

I'm probably going on and on
It seems I'm doing more of that these days


I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes it's like I'm losing touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

Mama says that I just shouldn't speak to you
Susan says that I should just move on

You oughta see the way these people look at me
When they see me 'round here talking to this stone

Everybody thinks I've lost my mind
But I just take it day by day


I probably wouldn't be this way
I probably wouldn't hurt so bad
I never pictured every minute without you in it
Oh You left so fast
Sometimes I see you standing there
Sometimes I feel an angel's touch
Sometimes I feel like I'm so lucky to have had the chance to love this much
God gave me a moment's grace
'Cause if I'd never seen your face
I probably wouldn't be this way

Probably wouldn't be this way

Got A Date a week from Friday with a preacher's son
Everybody says I'm crazy
I'll have to wait and see



so. its more about losing her husband than a grandparent, but still seems somewhat fitting. & i promise, all my posts won't always be this depressing & sad! haha. but, like the song says, ya know, what if you never met the person? what if you never loved them? never got to know everything about them? theirs likes, their dislikes? would you be any better? sometimes i think so, but then, i realize i never got to meet my grandpa godwin. daddy's dad. and i often think about him. everybody talks about him, but i would have really liked to have known him. just, to know him. even if i could just meet him for a day, i think it'd be so cool. what would he tell me? what adivice would he give me? what would he teach me how to do? would he be proud of me? would he like Parker? would he come to my horse shows? now, obviously, the answer to those last 3 questions are yes, but still.. what area of life would he be REALLY good at?

my papa is AMAZING at any kind of animal question. he knows so much abotu them. and he knows what all the crops are in the fields, too. so what would grandpa godwin know? what would he teach me? grandma godwin tought me how to sew. grandma tought me how to cook, and medical stuff. papa teaches me how to dress birds, and hunt, and take care of animals.

so, even tho i'm really sad about what happened with grandma, i still learned SO much. and yes, if i never met her, i wouldn't be this sad and depressed & have such a different look on life, but look at what else i would be missing out on! i woudln't have an AMAZING pearl necklace that my papa gives me pearls for, i woudln't know how to make biscuits that are HEAVENLY. i woudln't know how to properly clean a wound. i woudln't know how to hem pants. i woudln't know how to fry steak, or pick fruit from the store. and i could go on and on and ON about all the things she tought me.

so, is it better to have loved & lost than to have never loved it all? well for me, its better to have loved & lost. cause i have the memories to soothe the pain, a horse to wipe the tears, and friends to hug.

agree?