we could keep things just the same...

so, today has kinda been wierd. i had a dream last night about my grandma. like, she was still alive. [well DUH] and all the 'drama' in our neighborhood was still going on, and she was fesisty like she used to be. anddd idk, it was just, normal. like she was talking about what she wanted to do &all. idk. i don't remember it all, just little parts. but i woke up, and immediately realized what i dreamed & what reality was. &then i was sad. :( but, i got to talk to danielle for a few minutes & that helped. [i love ya chic]

& THEEEEN we went to overtons to get a new ski binding for mom's ski. and then i got depressed that i can't ski. [well i can. i mean heck, im really good at it. its just, with my knee &all, and it hurts it SO bad and i'm afraid i'll REALLY mess it up if i keep doing it.] espicially considering MY custom sloam ski is sitting above the boat, just collecting dust. grrrr.

but then, when we got home, and somewhere in between talking to rachel and sheena, i kinda realized something. not like, "ding ding ding, IDEAAA!" just, idk, i just realized something. that once i get to heaven, i'll get to meet my grandpa. & grandpa pulley. &i'll get to see my great-grandma again, who i don't remember all that well. and my grandma godwin, and grandma. & mr. gearld, and miss julia. and alex. and mr. jeffrey. and everybody else that i've lost. &i know of ALL the things i get to look foward to do once i die or Jesus comes, that seeing them really shoulnd't be at the top of my list, but it is. i'm just really excited that i get to see them again, possibly soon, possibly another 80 more years. but just the fact that i'll get to MEET the people i never got to meet, really excites me. and idk, it just, made me smile.

&yeah. that and my friends are SMAZING [super + amazing = smazing] andddddd i LOVED that i got to talk to sheena today, &annie, &ELEVATORS! hollly crap. i love you guyssss (:

&i guess i should enclude a song. i flove this song. MOSTLY b/c sheena wrote a BALLIN OS off of it, and KC mentioned it in her twitter, and i fell in love with it again. i mean seriously,

Yeah We Both Got Dreams
We Could Chase Alone
Or We Could Make Our Own

that's just redic. i LOVE jennifer nettles, seriously. so yeah.

here it issss (: enjoy.



xoxo, jo

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