just dance, gonna be okay

allllllrightey now.

so, i gotta say. i've been happy these past few days. since friday to be exact. and it feels dang good. after the past months, with deaths and drama, it felt pretty daggone good to stand in the middle of the arena with danielle, blasting 'boom boom pow' on my phone, dancing like idiots, and being stupid. aka, being 16. it felt GOOD. to just LIVE. to smile. to forget everything else. to just be with who makes ya smile. it totally brought me back down to earth. and being in the arena, riding parker, doing what i do, and being happy, and being rewarded for what i pour my heart and soul into? it felt frickin amazing. THIS is why i do what i do. this feeling. the feeling of content-ness. [is that a word? idk] just feeling WHOLE. laughing until i almost fall off of parker cause i did something stupid that made danielle laugh. or just the whole 14-18 hms group in the warm up running over each other trying to get the last minute practice in. and being congratulated by complete strangers on an amazing HMS run. hearing your named called for circuit champion. scratching that spot on your horses neck just because you know it feels good. eatting a funnel cake and a bag of M&&M's durring the HUS with your best friend, just for old times sake. its what keeps me sane. what keeps me going. what keeps me pushing on through the tough times. to know that better times are ahead. and, i don't know. its just the feeling i get. when it takes 4 people to lunge harvey. orrrrr when you're getting the latest gossip on horseback in the corner.

just being with who makes you smile.

this life and world is so twisted and screwed up, if you don't look for and appreciate the happy moments, you'll go insane. and i've reallllllly been trying to appreciate the small things. smelling the roses. ya got to appreciate the small stuff or else you'll just be screweddddd. so. i smile. alot. at getting an email saying try me was updated. or in everysingle second of every single day. or make a pretty memory. or spotlight. OR getting an email from danielle's phone (: or my fave song comming on the radio. or remembering a special memory with my grandma. the inside jokes. the small stuff. ya just gotta smile.

so. here's to my amazing best friend danielle taylor plourd. ya know why. (: I MADE YOU BLUSH! haha. loverrrrrrrr.