Saturday, October 17, 2009

tear

ever feel like you want to cry, but can't? i do. and i wonder why i feel *so* sad inside, but yet i can't make my eyes cry. and all i want to do is grab my old teddy bear, cuddle up, and cry myself to sleep. because it gives you some sense of comfort, but i just can't. cry for love lost, pepole lost, and feelings you'll never feel again. hugs you'll never get again. food you'll never taste again. seeing that smile, hearing that laugh, and feeling that way. and thats me right now. at 12:29A.M., saturday morning.

NC State Fair! :)

sorry its a couple days late, but better late than never. so here we go!

halter; 1st under both judges
*grand champion youth gelding* under both judges! :)

sms; 1st under both :) i was really happy with parker, but i made a stupid mistake. you had to trot around cones, and then back up to where your hip was in-line with with the judge, so when you piovoted 90 degrees you would be inline with the judge. well stupid me didn't back up enough, i needed 2 more steps to be even. but even with that mistake, i was still able to win :) so i was happy. espicially with parker, he was really good, i was just beating myself up for a stupid, novice mistake.

novice youth wp; 1st under both. okay. so i get on right as they are finishing the hour long break, and there is 1 class before mine. and, of course, parker is SUPER SUPER SUPER fresh. even after i lunged for almost an hour, and hes bowing up & crow hopping and i'm like GREATTTT. so i try to get as much energy out as fast as possible, and then i realize i have my bigger spurs on than i normally do, so i send mom back to the trailer to get my small spurs. so right as mom is comming back, they start calling for my class so i hollar to mr. lester HOLD THE GATE! TACK CHANGE! so they hold the gate for me [they were so nice! :) ] and i get them changed and lope off, lope through the chute and break to a jog and jog in. PHEW. he's OK, not the best, but it could have been worse.

14-18 WP; 1st under both. there was only 1 class in b/w my other WP class & this one, so again i didn't have much time to wear him out. but i basically loped out of the class and loped the whole. 7. minutes. so i got some energy out. he was better than the first class, so i was pleased with his improvement.

NY HMS: 1&2. good pattern. didn't really understand the placing.

14-18. 2&2. this REALLY REALLY confused me. [and ticked me off] the girl who won had NO change of speed from her 2 circles, and i most obviously did. *siiiiiigh* we've all won classes we didn't deserve to win, so i guess you gotta lose classes you deserve to win.

open trail; 6&6. they asked me to fill to make 10 so i agree'ed. i basically didn't know the pattern, and didn't get a chance to practice it, so we did pretty good. the only thing we did BAD that docked us that low was we stepped out of the "L" back through, which docked us that low.

youth trail; 1&1. i was SO proud of parker! they had elevated lope overs, and he didn't tick a single one :) i was smiling the whole time. really, really, REALLY happy with him. ABSOLUTELY amazing way to end the night. prolly one of our best trail runs.. so happy.

:)


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