snakes, spiders, and dads.

hey everybody! thought i'd forgotten about ya? yeah ; sorry about that. so i've been pretty busy this past week. doing nothing, lol. but yeah, i mean, i've been busy but it seems like i have gotten nothing done, but oh well.

i FiNALLY was able to shoot some this past week, yay! i had almost forgotten how to shoot a gun, haha, jk. after about 1 round i was warmed up and back in my groove, and it felt good! lol ; but yeah. i did some damageeeee (:

and when we were shooting, papa saw a brown recluse spider, like the kind that bit rocky &messed up his paw, so we were able to kill him, and we found like the 'wife' and 'children' too, so we killed like 5 all-in-all. that wasn't fun to find those, lol.

&then later that day, i was walking madison around our farm and i saw a snake, so i had my cell phone [thank goodness] so i called mama nad she got her .410 pistol and came out there, and we killed it (: yaaay, lol. it was pretty long too.. ick. and, that was hte THiRD one we've killed so far, and its not even june yet. oh boy. lots of snakes = paranoid jo. so wooo. not.

&dad was gone all week, left monday night after we got home from the beach to fly to TN, and got home last night and he left this morning @ 3am to drive to myrtle beach this weekend for a NCSU golf tournament. so i hope he has fun, but im missing my daddy, lol.

& taylor showed me this picture. &i fell in love ;its just, so strong and powerful, and i am completely in love with it. so now its my laptop BG, twitter BG, and everything else, lol. i hope you get as much out of it as i did (:

FiNALLY MADE iT!

we just got to the beach a few minutes ago, wooo.

first off, horse show. AMAZiNGLY! omg. omg. omg. execept for the exceptionally long gate calls, the show was perfect.

~showmanship ; kinda a weird trot pattern, but we got thru it, and parker stopped dead square. nailed our pivots. :D won the class.
~western pleasure; okay, before pleasure, we had a wardrobe malfunction. we were putting on my chaps, and the zipper got stuck in my pants. daddy did it, of course. so after 15 minutes, and the class before me being called, mom just says to take it off so dad can work on it better. so i take my chaps and pants off all at the same time, & put my old pants on, ready to go in pleasure w/o chaps. well, the dang thing just magically comes off.. after dad pulled &pulled for a freaking hour. anyway. we put the chaps BACK ON, and then they call my class. so i throw the bridle on, and literally go straight in the class. no warm up, no nothing. amazing ride. won the class (:
~horsemanship ; amazing pattern. kinda iffy transition from the lope to extended jog, but i'm just being picky. won the class
~trail. after 2 weekends ago, simple pattern. had like 5 walk overs tho, lol. anyway. beasted it. won the class.

so yeah, i won all my classessss! i effing love my horse, omg. i'm about 99.9% sure i won high point, but they hadn't 'tallied it up' yet, and we had to leave to get to the beach and all, so their ganna call me.

we finally got here [at the beach] andddd there's a freaking full house. okay. lets start.

kam &robert &jay &amy &rob &bethany &christopher &betty &chris &madison &mom &daddy &jack. wooooo. this is ganna be funnnnnnnn. haha... don't even ask me about sleeping arangements.

friiiiday!

woo. today's fridayyyyy! yay. :D

so. so far, its 4:46, and i have rode parker, bathed parker, clipped parker, banded parker, cleaned the trailer, sync-ed my phone to my PC, ordered the bday cake, and took a shower. oh, responded to sheena's email, and read a couple of chapters that were updated. i'm freaking beatttt. i mean, i rode parker for a good hour or so, and then i took the bridle off and we walk for another 15 minutes. and parker was better than yesterday, but he still needed 'encouragement' from my legs... which means my knee is screwed. im ganna OD on ibuprofin or something, my word. oooowie. yeah. so now, im procrastination on drying my hair, then ima curl it since we're kinda having a bday supper for daddy at outback w/ greg&linda, & mickey&diane, so yeahhh. wish me luck... and oh! then i get to go put the slinkey on parker and feed him. thennnnn when i get home i get to pack for the beach. i need this vacay soo bad.
i just wish maygen could come
cause i want her here really bad.
&she does too.
&we could stalk hilarie together.
&burn in the sun together
&tear up the intercoaster waterway (:
&just be GiRLS.

but, i get to hang with jay&amy&robert&kam&rob&bethany&jack, sooo i guess thats my consolation prize. lol ; that should be, fun? a bunch of 20 yo's, and ME. yeahhhhh mannnn... lol.

okay. off to do... stuff.

i'll try and post my results for the show in the am, once i get down thur&all, wish me luck, lovers!

owwie. &best fraaaands!

hey mannn.

so. i'm really sore from riding. and idk why, i'm never, EVER sore. i just am. that miiiight be cause i pushed parker into his attempt to long trot, and i dropped my stirrups and posted. yeah, smart. it felt really good though. like, i acutally ENJOY posting w/o stirrups.. idk why. anyway.

stitches. OWWW! omg, they hurtttt. and my lip is soooo soreeee, ughhh! its just like, fmlllllll.

i gots to talk to danielllllle today in line @ the pizza place. and lemme tell you. my girl kicked some MAJOR *butt at region 10 ; yeahhh mannnn. :D wooo. i wish i would have been there :( anyway, her boyyyyyfran is so sweet. && i love talking to her cause she makes me smile. &everySINGLE time i listen to 'boom boom pow' i remember everrrrrything that happened @ district V (: anddd i smile. yesssums.

i misses her, and i want to see her SOON.

so. there. i updated. happy? haha.

& breathe, just breathe..

hey peoples. so. title of this blog is from anna nalik's song, breathe. i've been listening to it alot lately. cause, thats all we can do. is just breathe. no matter whats going on, you just gotta take it all in stride. day by day. & when day by day doesn't work, hour by hour. sometimes minute by minute. and when that's too much, second by second. trust me. i've done them all this past week.

i've had so much going on, and one thing kinda resolved itself, after an explantion, but i don't know. i know it can never be the same. because she honestly thought i would do that.. and i can't believe she thought i would. THAT hurts. that she thinks i would betray her... so its just kinda like, we're 'friends' again now, but i know it can never be the same. oh well.

anddddd we passed the one month mark of mrs. julia's death.. and its still SO hard. i see things that remind me of her everyday... anddddd it just sucksss. i miss her so much. but i have my cross <3

monday night.. ohhhhhhh dear goodness. it was amazing. and beautiful. and i cried and cried. it was the perfect ending. but. what do i do now? seriously ; its over. i can't believe it. i don't know what ima do now.... i feel like mu life now has no meaning. gahhh. but me&annie&sheena&tina&amy&kc&heather&MAYGEN will get through somehow. another. i really don't know how, but, well yeah i do. cause sheena is ganna write some KICK A$$ stories. [no pressure babe] SO. and maygen is going to post MY STORY. [i think i've been waiting my whole life for it.]

so yeahhhhh. && of course the whole 'faling otu of the swing/getting stitches/no cute dr.' thing.. yeah. lol.

alrighteyyyy folks (: enjoy (:

life is short..

alrightyyyy you guys.

so here's my new out-take on life. life is SHORT. i don't know if i'm going to live to be a 100 years old or i'll make it through tomorrow. but i know one thing. no matter how long or how short it is, i want people who are my REAL friends by my side. people i know that love me for who i am, who will stick up for me, and when the going gets rough, i'll see them. i don't want to spend my time with fake imposters, who just want to be my friend cause its convienent or whatever.

so idk, just some things have happened recently that got me to this conclusion. so you guys know who you are. the imposters and the real ones. to the fakers ; screw you, i'll be fine without you. to my real girls, i love you so much and i'm to glad that you're there for me, whenever. i love you (:

major shoutout and congrats to my loverrrrrrrrr, miss danielle taylor plourd and zippos dandy leo on winning youth horsemanship at region 10. congrats baby girl, im so proud of my kick @$$ best friend (:

just dance, gonna be okay

allllllrightey now.

so, i gotta say. i've been happy these past few days. since friday to be exact. and it feels dang good. after the past months, with deaths and drama, it felt pretty daggone good to stand in the middle of the arena with danielle, blasting 'boom boom pow' on my phone, dancing like idiots, and being stupid. aka, being 16. it felt GOOD. to just LIVE. to smile. to forget everything else. to just be with who makes ya smile. it totally brought me back down to earth. and being in the arena, riding parker, doing what i do, and being happy, and being rewarded for what i pour my heart and soul into? it felt frickin amazing. THIS is why i do what i do. this feeling. the feeling of content-ness. [is that a word? idk] just feeling WHOLE. laughing until i almost fall off of parker cause i did something stupid that made danielle laugh. or just the whole 14-18 hms group in the warm up running over each other trying to get the last minute practice in. and being congratulated by complete strangers on an amazing HMS run. hearing your named called for circuit champion. scratching that spot on your horses neck just because you know it feels good. eatting a funnel cake and a bag of M&&M's durring the HUS with your best friend, just for old times sake. its what keeps me sane. what keeps me going. what keeps me pushing on through the tough times. to know that better times are ahead. and, i don't know. its just the feeling i get. when it takes 4 people to lunge harvey. orrrrr when you're getting the latest gossip on horseback in the corner.

just being with who makes you smile.

this life and world is so twisted and screwed up, if you don't look for and appreciate the happy moments, you'll go insane. and i've reallllllly been trying to appreciate the small things. smelling the roses. ya got to appreciate the small stuff or else you'll just be screweddddd. so. i smile. alot. at getting an email saying try me was updated. or in everysingle second of every single day. or make a pretty memory. or spotlight. OR getting an email from danielle's phone (: or my fave song comming on the radio. or remembering a special memory with my grandma. the inside jokes. the small stuff. ya just gotta smile.

so. here's to my amazing best friend danielle taylor plourd. ya know why. (: I MADE YOU BLUSH! haha. loverrrrrrrr.

NCQHA district V, day 1 <3

okay. im super tired. but ima give yall an update since i like yall so much, haha.

show ; AMAZING! parker did so good for me (:

halter ; 3/3. i was up against some MAJOR halter horses, so i can't complain.

14-18 SMS. 4/10. parker was really REALLY good. by far one of our BEST Patterns. but we just weren't as 'sharp' as the others.

NY HMS ; 1/8. parker NAILED the pattern. *i* personally thought our pivots SUCKED, but everybody else said they were good, so i'm like okaaaay...

14-18 HMS ; 3/4. it had a lead change. && when your the only one doing a simple, it kinda hurts ya. i beat the girl whos horse bucked durring her flying lead change. yeah. but parker did really good, && i was happy.

youth trail. ?/3. it was an INSANE pattern. everyyybody was complaining. it had 3 lope overs, 2 J/O's, a teeeeenytiney box, and yeah. i just wanted to get through it w/o demolishing it. which we kinda accomplished. they had a lope circle pole thingey, that was really tight, and either you hit all your marks and were clean or you screwed it up. i mostly hit my marks, but we were kiiiinda 'out there' on the last pole. i can't tell from the vid if his hind end got over the pole or not. anyway. i was pleased with him. as soon as i got thru w/ my run i put him up, and we didn't hear how i did, butttt i'm thinking 2nd or 3rd outta 3. so i guess we'll see in the AM.

my shirt. okay. DIDN'T get here until TODAY. so i didn't get to wear it today, but my dad brought it tonight so i can wear it tomorrow. its a little big, it needs to be altered to fit, but it'll work. its really pretty, and for what we paid, its really nice. AND, thanks to my other mother miss lisa, i'll have a HOTT saddle pad to match. [i love you miss lisa!]

now. the hotel room. looong story short, after confirming like a thousand times that it was NON smoking [cause it screws with my allergies SO bad to be in a smoking room ; figured that out the hard way] we ended up with a smoking room. && the hotel is packed, so they can't give us anotehr room. fml much? i think so. so, tomorrow i'll be sniffling and sneezing and just UGH!

but i've had so much fun! i got to spend alot of time w/ ashlyn bodine and shes really cool, we played w/ her ipod and watched the HUS classes. and i got to spend some quality best frand time with my loverrrrr, miss danielle taylor. i missed her so much, and ahhh. i love her.

pics/vids.

i have some halter pics, and my mom missed my SMS class cause she went to get breakfast and the classes moved SUPER fast, and she video'ed my HMS classes and trail. so i put together a vid of those video's, and i also threw in danielle's WR run. its super blurry and really bad cause i was trying to hold my dog and my drink and video and yeah, i suck at videoing. haha.

anyway. here is the link to the pics ;



and the video is uploading, i'll edit and post it once its thru.

toasts&&BEST FRiENDS<3

so. today is my last monday as a junior. pretty scary, huh? so in Pub. Speaking we had to give a toast. so i gave mine in honor of maygen lauren gibbons. and it got to me thinking. [ususally a bad thing.. jk] how lucky and fortunate and blessed i am to have such amazing friends. they're sweet, loving, but hen i need the honest truth, they're not afraid to say that this outfit sucks or that i totally screwed up. and when i fall they are there to pick me up, and if i can't, they'll lie down with me. i know i can call them ANYTiMe, 3 am, during school, during supper, whenever, whatever. they're abs. amazing and i love them with all of my heart, and i know i wouldn't and couldn't be who i am today if it wasn't for them. just the little stuff they do.. getting a text with a smiley face, or having a mad war with maygen quoting oth, or blasting boom boom pow with MAC. its the getting the emails saying a story was updated, or just a "hey. your face is pretty." email. the little stuff. thanks babes.

so here's a shoutout to muh lovely ladies ;

* amy elizabeth speight

* maygen lauren gibbons

* sheena

* danielle taylor plourd

* mac

* mallory PAiGE gayle

* ANNiE!

and many many more. i love you girls.

me&my giiiiirls (: <3

okay. so just please watch this. all of it. i know, i know. its uber long. but, if you don't laugh, then, your funny bone is mia or something. its my life bascially. i love maygen and amy. &&my eyes look really blue. yay. haha.. comentario, por favor.

so i'm having issues w/ the link, but just please copy and paste the link below and watch and commenttttt!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMSZLLscRCQ