yesterday, around 3:30, my grandmother died. it was VERY sudden and very shocking, and we are all still in shock. my papa and mom are taking it VERY hard, as expected. we aren't sure exately what happened, but we didn't find out until around 7:15. I was at church, and my dad &mom were at home, and my dad called me and said that i needed to get home NOW, that something was wrong. so of course i freaked out and asked if him &mom were okay, and he said yeah, we'll tell you when you get home. so i took outta there like a bat outta you-know-where, and when i was about 3 minutes from home my dad called again and said to just drive in at nanny and papa's house. so i said okay. so when i pulled in the driveway, and saw a sherrif's car sitting beside the house, i knew something was MAJORLY wrong. so of course i started to MAJORLY freak out, &i knew that it had to either be papa or grandma, since mom &dad were okay, and when i saw papa at the door holding mom crying, i knew it was grandma. when i was walking up to their house, i heard papa say "she's dead" and thankfully daddy was beside me because i collapsed... so then we had to call her 2 sons [mom's brothers] and tell them, and that was horrible. one of them lives about 45 minutes from here, so he got here about 3 hours later [yeah, thats right. he had to finish eatting out with his FRIENDS before he could come.] and the other one lives in TN, so as soon as he found out, him and his wife and 2 sons took off. they got here about 3-ish AM. grandma's brother &his wife came last night and stayed about 4 hours, which was very nice. uncle barry [grandma's brother] is incharge of the graveyard at the church where she will be burried, and so he will have to mark his own sister's grave... i just can't believe it. but its just such a major shock, i mean, she was getting older and her mind wasn't very good, but just, yeah. mom &dad &papa &uncle david [the one who lives in TN. the OTHER brother had to preach a funeral today so he coudln't go] just left to go to the funeral home to make arrangements &all. last night was very very hard, i dont' think my mom got ANY sleep at all, and i got a few hours b/w 2am-8am. we stayed over at papa's house until about 12, then daddy and i came home [i'm SO glad we live beside each other!] and changed clothes, and i took mom her contact stuff back over there b/c she said she was going to stay there a little while longer, and when i got back home daddy said he was going back over there, so i took my shower and laid down, but all i did was toss &turn. about 2am mom &dad came home to get somebodies number, but they couldn't find it. so then we all got in mom &dad's king sized bed, lol, and just kinda laid there. i think the last time i looked at the clock it was about 2:45, and then at 8 the funeral home called, and made an appt. for everybody to go up there and make the plans &all, and then other people started calling &all so we just went ahead and got up. so i guess i did get about 5 hours sleep, but it sure doesnt' feel like it, lol. i feel like i've been run over by one of those paving machienes with the big rollers, lol. &extremely numb at hte same time. aaaand my head is KILLING me, but i expected that. as i have found out from the LAST time someone close to us died, when i get extremely upset, i hyperventalate while crying &then i just kinda go beserk, &yeah. but i was able to get in touch with my 2 best friends, amy &danielle P., &they were extrememly nice and so helpful to me last night.
so just please keep my family in your prayers, my mom &papa are taking it extremely hard, as expected. thank you so much <33
p.s. i started to write this last night, but i coudln't finish, so i finished writing it today and i changed all the 'today's' to 'yesterday's' and stuff.. i think i'm still in shock, even though its completely 'hit' me, i still expect her to be here, ya know. ohhhhh mannnn... but. FYI, horses are the best to hug &cry on, lol.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
snakes, spiders, and dads.
hey everybody! thought i'd forgotten about ya? yeah ; sorry about that. so i've been pretty busy this past week. doing nothing, lol. but yeah, i mean, i've been busy but it seems like i have gotten nothing done, but oh well.
i FiNALLY was able to shoot some this past week, yay! i had almost forgotten how to shoot a gun, haha, jk. after about 1 round i was warmed up and back in my groove, and it felt good! lol ; but yeah. i did some damageeeee (:
and when we were shooting, papa saw a brown recluse spider, like the kind that bit rocky &messed up his paw, so we were able to kill him, and we found like the 'wife' and 'children' too, so we killed like 5 all-in-all. that wasn't fun to find those, lol.
&then later that day, i was walking madison around our farm and i saw a snake, so i had my cell phone [thank goodness] so i called mama nad she got her .410 pistol and came out there, and we killed it (: yaaay, lol. it was pretty long too.. ick. and, that was hte THiRD one we've killed so far, and its not even june yet. oh boy. lots of snakes = paranoid jo. so wooo. not.
&dad was gone all week, left monday night after we got home from the beach to fly to TN, and got home last night and he left this morning @ 3am to drive to myrtle beach this weekend for a NCSU golf tournament. so i hope he has fun, but im missing my daddy, lol.
& taylor showed me this picture. &i fell in love ;its just, so strong and powerful, and i am completely in love with it. so now its my laptop BG, twitter BG, and everything else, lol. i hope you get as much out of it as i did (:
i FiNALLY was able to shoot some this past week, yay! i had almost forgotten how to shoot a gun, haha, jk. after about 1 round i was warmed up and back in my groove, and it felt good! lol ; but yeah. i did some damageeeee (:
and when we were shooting, papa saw a brown recluse spider, like the kind that bit rocky &messed up his paw, so we were able to kill him, and we found like the 'wife' and 'children' too, so we killed like 5 all-in-all. that wasn't fun to find those, lol.
&then later that day, i was walking madison around our farm and i saw a snake, so i had my cell phone [thank goodness] so i called mama nad she got her .410 pistol and came out there, and we killed it (: yaaay, lol. it was pretty long too.. ick. and, that was hte THiRD one we've killed so far, and its not even june yet. oh boy. lots of snakes = paranoid jo. so wooo. not.
&dad was gone all week, left monday night after we got home from the beach to fly to TN, and got home last night and he left this morning @ 3am to drive to myrtle beach this weekend for a NCSU golf tournament. so i hope he has fun, but im missing my daddy, lol.
& taylor showed me this picture. &i fell in love ;its just, so strong and powerful, and i am completely in love with it. so now its my laptop BG, twitter BG, and everything else, lol. i hope you get as much out of it as i did (:
Saturday, May 23, 2009
FiNALLY MADE iT!
we just got to the beach a few minutes ago, wooo.
first off, horse show. AMAZiNGLY! omg. omg. omg. execept for the exceptionally long gate calls, the show was perfect.
~showmanship ; kinda a weird trot pattern, but we got thru it, and parker stopped dead square. nailed our pivots. :D won the class.
~western pleasure; okay, before pleasure, we had a wardrobe malfunction. we were putting on my chaps, and the zipper got stuck in my pants. daddy did it, of course. so after 15 minutes, and the class before me being called, mom just says to take it off so dad can work on it better. so i take my chaps and pants off all at the same time, & put my old pants on, ready to go in pleasure w/o chaps. well, the dang thing just magically comes off.. after dad pulled &pulled for a freaking hour. anyway. we put the chaps BACK ON, and then they call my class. so i throw the bridle on, and literally go straight in the class. no warm up, no nothing. amazing ride. won the class (:
~horsemanship ; amazing pattern. kinda iffy transition from the lope to extended jog, but i'm just being picky. won the class
~trail. after 2 weekends ago, simple pattern. had like 5 walk overs tho, lol. anyway. beasted it. won the class.
so yeah, i won all my classessss! i effing love my horse, omg. i'm about 99.9% sure i won high point, but they hadn't 'tallied it up' yet, and we had to leave to get to the beach and all, so their ganna call me.
we finally got here [at the beach] andddd there's a freaking full house. okay. lets start.
kam &robert &jay &amy &rob &bethany &christopher &betty &chris &madison &mom &daddy &jack. wooooo. this is ganna be funnnnnnnn. haha... don't even ask me about sleeping arangements.
first off, horse show. AMAZiNGLY! omg. omg. omg. execept for the exceptionally long gate calls, the show was perfect.
~showmanship ; kinda a weird trot pattern, but we got thru it, and parker stopped dead square. nailed our pivots. :D won the class.
~western pleasure; okay, before pleasure, we had a wardrobe malfunction. we were putting on my chaps, and the zipper got stuck in my pants. daddy did it, of course. so after 15 minutes, and the class before me being called, mom just says to take it off so dad can work on it better. so i take my chaps and pants off all at the same time, & put my old pants on, ready to go in pleasure w/o chaps. well, the dang thing just magically comes off.. after dad pulled &pulled for a freaking hour. anyway. we put the chaps BACK ON, and then they call my class. so i throw the bridle on, and literally go straight in the class. no warm up, no nothing. amazing ride. won the class (:
~horsemanship ; amazing pattern. kinda iffy transition from the lope to extended jog, but i'm just being picky. won the class
~trail. after 2 weekends ago, simple pattern. had like 5 walk overs tho, lol. anyway. beasted it. won the class.
so yeah, i won all my classessss! i effing love my horse, omg. i'm about 99.9% sure i won high point, but they hadn't 'tallied it up' yet, and we had to leave to get to the beach and all, so their ganna call me.
we finally got here [at the beach] andddd there's a freaking full house. okay. lets start.
kam &robert &jay &amy &rob &bethany &christopher &betty &chris &madison &mom &daddy &jack. wooooo. this is ganna be funnnnnnnn. haha... don't even ask me about sleeping arangements.
Friday, May 22, 2009
friiiiday!
woo. today's fridayyyyy! yay. :D
so. so far, its 4:46, and i have rode parker, bathed parker, clipped parker, banded parker, cleaned the trailer, sync-ed my phone to my PC, ordered the bday cake, and took a shower. oh, responded to sheena's email, and read a couple of chapters that were updated. i'm freaking beatttt. i mean, i rode parker for a good hour or so, and then i took the bridle off and we walk for another 15 minutes. and parker was better than yesterday, but he still needed 'encouragement' from my legs... which means my knee is screwed. im ganna OD on ibuprofin or something, my word. oooowie. yeah. so now, im procrastination on drying my hair, then ima curl it since we're kinda having a bday supper for daddy at outback w/ greg&linda, & mickey&diane, so yeahhh. wish me luck... and oh! then i get to go put the slinkey on parker and feed him. thennnnn when i get home i get to pack for the beach. i need this vacay soo bad.
i just wish maygen could come
cause i want her here really bad.
&she does too.
&we could stalk hilarie together.
&burn in the sun together
&tear up the intercoaster waterway (:
&just be GiRLS.
but, i get to hang with jay&amy&robert&kam&rob&bethany&jack, sooo i guess thats my consolation prize. lol ; that should be, fun? a bunch of 20 yo's, and ME. yeahhhhh mannnn... lol.
okay. off to do... stuff.
i'll try and post my results for the show in the am, once i get down thur&all, wish me luck, lovers!
so. so far, its 4:46, and i have rode parker, bathed parker, clipped parker, banded parker, cleaned the trailer, sync-ed my phone to my PC, ordered the bday cake, and took a shower. oh, responded to sheena's email, and read a couple of chapters that were updated. i'm freaking beatttt. i mean, i rode parker for a good hour or so, and then i took the bridle off and we walk for another 15 minutes. and parker was better than yesterday, but he still needed 'encouragement' from my legs... which means my knee is screwed. im ganna OD on ibuprofin or something, my word. oooowie. yeah. so now, im procrastination on drying my hair, then ima curl it since we're kinda having a bday supper for daddy at outback w/ greg&linda, & mickey&diane, so yeahhh. wish me luck... and oh! then i get to go put the slinkey on parker and feed him. thennnnn when i get home i get to pack for the beach. i need this vacay soo bad.
i just wish maygen could come
cause i want her here really bad.
&she does too.
&we could stalk hilarie together.
&burn in the sun together
&tear up the intercoaster waterway (:
&just be GiRLS.
but, i get to hang with jay&amy&robert&kam&rob&bethany&jack, sooo i guess thats my consolation prize. lol ; that should be, fun? a bunch of 20 yo's, and ME. yeahhhhh mannnn... lol.
okay. off to do... stuff.
i'll try and post my results for the show in the am, once i get down thur&all, wish me luck, lovers!
Thursday, May 21, 2009
owwie. &best fraaaands!
hey mannn.
so. i'm really sore from riding. and idk why, i'm never, EVER sore. i just am. that miiiight be cause i pushed parker into his attempt to long trot, and i dropped my stirrups and posted. yeah, smart. it felt really good though. like, i acutally ENJOY posting w/o stirrups.. idk why. anyway.
stitches. OWWW! omg, they hurtttt. and my lip is soooo soreeee, ughhh! its just like, fmlllllll.
i gots to talk to danielllllle today in line @ the pizza place. and lemme tell you. my girl kicked some MAJOR *butt at region 10 ; yeahhh mannnn. :D wooo. i wish i would have been there :( anyway, her boyyyyyfran is so sweet. && i love talking to her cause she makes me smile. &everySINGLE time i listen to 'boom boom pow' i remember everrrrrything that happened @ district V (: anddd i smile. yesssums.
i misses her, and i want to see her SOON.
so. there. i updated. happy? haha.
so. i'm really sore from riding. and idk why, i'm never, EVER sore. i just am. that miiiight be cause i pushed parker into his attempt to long trot, and i dropped my stirrups and posted. yeah, smart. it felt really good though. like, i acutally ENJOY posting w/o stirrups.. idk why. anyway.
stitches. OWWW! omg, they hurtttt. and my lip is soooo soreeee, ughhh! its just like, fmlllllll.
i gots to talk to danielllllle today in line @ the pizza place. and lemme tell you. my girl kicked some MAJOR *butt at region 10 ; yeahhh mannnn. :D wooo. i wish i would have been there :( anyway, her boyyyyyfran is so sweet. && i love talking to her cause she makes me smile. &everySINGLE time i listen to 'boom boom pow' i remember everrrrrything that happened @ district V (: anddd i smile. yesssums.
i misses her, and i want to see her SOON.
so. there. i updated. happy? haha.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
& breathe, just breathe..
hey peoples. so. title of this blog is from anna nalik's song, breathe. i've been listening to it alot lately. cause, thats all we can do. is just breathe. no matter whats going on, you just gotta take it all in stride. day by day. & when day by day doesn't work, hour by hour. sometimes minute by minute. and when that's too much, second by second. trust me. i've done them all this past week.
i've had so much going on, and one thing kinda resolved itself, after an explantion, but i don't know. i know it can never be the same. because she honestly thought i would do that.. and i can't believe she thought i would. THAT hurts. that she thinks i would betray her... so its just kinda like, we're 'friends' again now, but i know it can never be the same. oh well.
anddddd we passed the one month mark of mrs. julia's death.. and its still SO hard. i see things that remind me of her everyday... anddddd it just sucksss. i miss her so much. but i have my cross <3
monday night.. ohhhhhhh dear goodness. it was amazing. and beautiful. and i cried and cried. it was the perfect ending. but. what do i do now? seriously ; its over. i can't believe it. i don't know what ima do now.... i feel like mu life now has no meaning. gahhh. but me&annie&sheena&tina&amy&kc&heather&MAYGEN will get through somehow. another. i really don't know how, but, well yeah i do. cause sheena is ganna write some KICK A$$ stories. [no pressure babe] SO. and maygen is going to post MY STORY. [i think i've been waiting my whole life for it.]
so yeahhhhh. && of course the whole 'faling otu of the swing/getting stitches/no cute dr.' thing.. yeah. lol.
alrighteyyyy folks (: enjoy (:
i've had so much going on, and one thing kinda resolved itself, after an explantion, but i don't know. i know it can never be the same. because she honestly thought i would do that.. and i can't believe she thought i would. THAT hurts. that she thinks i would betray her... so its just kinda like, we're 'friends' again now, but i know it can never be the same. oh well.
anddddd we passed the one month mark of mrs. julia's death.. and its still SO hard. i see things that remind me of her everyday... anddddd it just sucksss. i miss her so much. but i have my cross <3
monday night.. ohhhhhhh dear goodness. it was amazing. and beautiful. and i cried and cried. it was the perfect ending. but. what do i do now? seriously ; its over. i can't believe it. i don't know what ima do now.... i feel like mu life now has no meaning. gahhh. but me&annie&sheena&tina&amy&kc&heather&MAYGEN will get through somehow. another. i really don't know how, but, well yeah i do. cause sheena is ganna write some KICK A$$ stories. [no pressure babe] SO. and maygen is going to post MY STORY. [i think i've been waiting my whole life for it.]
so yeahhhhh. && of course the whole 'faling otu of the swing/getting stitches/no cute dr.' thing.. yeah. lol.
alrighteyyyy folks (: enjoy (:
Friday, May 15, 2009
life is short..
alrightyyyy you guys.
so here's my new out-take on life. life is SHORT. i don't know if i'm going to live to be a 100 years old or i'll make it through tomorrow. but i know one thing. no matter how long or how short it is, i want people who are my REAL friends by my side. people i know that love me for who i am, who will stick up for me, and when the going gets rough, i'll see them. i don't want to spend my time with fake imposters, who just want to be my friend cause its convienent or whatever.
so idk, just some things have happened recently that got me to this conclusion. so you guys know who you are. the imposters and the real ones. to the fakers ; screw you, i'll be fine without you. to my real girls, i love you so much and i'm to glad that you're there for me, whenever. i love you (:
major shoutout and congrats to my loverrrrrrrrr, miss danielle taylor plourd and zippos dandy leo on winning youth horsemanship at region 10. congrats baby girl, im so proud of my kick @$$ best friend (:
so here's my new out-take on life. life is SHORT. i don't know if i'm going to live to be a 100 years old or i'll make it through tomorrow. but i know one thing. no matter how long or how short it is, i want people who are my REAL friends by my side. people i know that love me for who i am, who will stick up for me, and when the going gets rough, i'll see them. i don't want to spend my time with fake imposters, who just want to be my friend cause its convienent or whatever.
so idk, just some things have happened recently that got me to this conclusion. so you guys know who you are. the imposters and the real ones. to the fakers ; screw you, i'll be fine without you. to my real girls, i love you so much and i'm to glad that you're there for me, whenever. i love you (:
major shoutout and congrats to my loverrrrrrrrr, miss danielle taylor plourd and zippos dandy leo on winning youth horsemanship at region 10. congrats baby girl, im so proud of my kick @$$ best friend (:
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